Book is Finished!

This book that I’d began writing years ago was originally my drug addiction memoir but has evolved into something else entirely.

“Through the Abyss: Confronting the Darkness We Avoid”

What happens when you wake up and everything you thought you were—every story, every mask, every addiction and ideology—has crumbled into ash?

Through the Abyss isn’t just a book. It’s an invocation. A mirror. A descent. Part memoir, part philosophical reckoning, Through the Abyss explores what happens when you lose everything, not just on the outside, but inside—where the real war is.

It begins, not with a triumph, but with death. The kind that stains your hands and follows you into every room.

From there, the narrative spirals—not linearly, but cyclically, like a ritual. Like a trap. Like a key.

This is not a self-help book. It won’t give you five steps to healing or wrap pain in a neat, digestible quote.

It confronts the horror, the addiction, the loss, and dares to look deeper—not for answers, but for what’s been hidden.

It explores shadow work, societal illusions, technological hauntings, and the quiet realization that the systems we serve aren’t just external—they live inside us.

Each chapter is a door. Some lead downward. Some open you up. All of them reflect back parts of yourself you’ve ignored, suppressed, or feared. It’s disorienting by design—an initiatory journey through trauma, perception, and ultimately, transformation.

If you’ve ever felt like the world doesn’t make sense anymore, like you’re haunted by choices that weren’t even yours, or like you’re being called to something you can’t quite name—Through the Abyss was written for you.

But be warned: this book doesn’t want to be read. It wants to read you.

(I will be posting various chapters and announcements related to my book here. Also, be on the lookout for free copies!)